At last I'm able to accept him as....
For now I am really reliefed.. about my exams [not really, still I must study hard until my o level exams] and about my feelings to someone... heheh... This morning, after a big fight yesterday, at last we are able [Me especially] to calm down and think about it clearly.. I realise maybe I'm the one who is too over.. You know.. I'm only a Stubborn, spoilt 15-year-old girl who never thought about the consequences of loving someone..heheh..and it ended with "Ok...So...We are friends... still?" What could make me say "NO" to him? I know that I was wrong for acting too over upon him, but however, he's a part of my life and he's my friend.. my best friend ever I can say, although everything has change now... He lives, he exists and he's the best :) Yes.. and I replied him, "Juz like usual... chocolate melts on your hand!" what can I say? This all.. I feel reliefed when I said those words to him.. knowing him will be there as my friend, and me.. I'll be here whenever he needs me, that's all that I can give.. I know my biggest fault is to love my own best friend [UHHHH!!!!!! THIS IS THE BIGGEST MISTAKES IN 15 YEARS... ] and now.. yes... I feel relief.. I can get him out of my mind maybe for sometimes.. Besides.. he's not mine anyway.. hahahahaha...
He's himself... he belongs to himself, not me, not everyone else... he's him.. Yeah.. me too!!! I need to do a lots of things during this holiday.. I'll reach my dream. I'll "dedicate" my life juz for my study, my piano, my parents, my dreams and my friends... but not for "LOVE". Seems funny to give my self for those stupid love!!!! hahahahahaha 
Blurry me...at last.... Yummyyyy.... I understand... I'm happy...
