// Feel the Color.. //

Nothing but....

Loved * Happy * cheerful - The Feeler

Wheew... Tadi sejam yang lalu baru aja met Chris... seneng2... katanya fried rice gw enaq... hoho... apa iya yah... ngga tau juga deh... sapa tau aja dia bo'ong kali yahhh... heheh... kadang kan orang suka getu... biarpun ngga enaq, demi jaga perasaan orang laen... dia bisa aja bilang enaq... *sigh* ngga tau juga deh... moga aja bener... seneng banget... bisa nyantai bareng dia.. terus tadi di radio ada lagu nya NORTH yang Glory Of Love... lupain segala masalah gw sejenak... soalnya pas sebelum gw pergi rumah itu dah ada perang dunia ke 3... tapi untung gw ngga kebawa2.... malahan hati gw luluh tadi sama papa... hmmm... apa yahh... ngga tau mo ngomong apa... Lagi kacau hati gw... selalu begini...

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Thursday, September 23, 2004 @ 6:20:00 pm |

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Sebuah Pengharapan...

Okay * Hopeful * Working - The Feeler

Kemarin, hari ini... rasanya didalam hati ini terasa hampa... Kosong... Glad to know that He's still here.. our Father.. rite by my side, acc- me this whole day... otherwise.... *sigh* Rasanya ingin banget mengakhiri hidup ini... Berapa banyak masalah lagi yang harus gw hadapi.. rasanya...*sigh* Rumah, kadang udah ngga kelihatan seperti rumah lagi. Rasanya ngga ingin lagi balik ke rumah. Tapi.. saat melihat segalanya jadi lebih baik.. Rumah... sebuah tempat yang penuh dengan kehangatan, kenangan indah.. Dimana gw bisa menemukan lagi "rasa" itu..Tapi yang gw liat sekarang ini.. ngga jarang suasana rumah jadi dingin.. Permusuhan.. Pertentangan..Walaupun ngga menyangkut gw.. tapi dampak buruknya selalu gw yang terima.. Rasanya sakit...

Ngga tau kenapa... Kenapa semuanya ngga bisa berubah kembali seperti dulu... saat-saat itu.. damai.. tenang... Sampai sekarang ini.. yang ada di dalam diri gw hanya tinggal "Doa" dan "Pengharapan"... Walaupun ngga jarang juga RUMAH ini diselimuti kebahagiaan.. tapi lebih ngga jarang lagi... RUMAH ini diselimuti KABUT...Extremely thick fog... rasa EGOIS, AMARAH, GENGSI... semuanya ngga bisa hilang... Tuhan... Apa kesalahan yang telah diperbuat hambaMu ini... kenapa segalanya terasa berat... Kadang gw pikir... semuanya berakhir sudah... tapi saat gw melihat titik terang disana... seberkas cahaya dari langit... saat mata ini merasa silau melihat matahari pagi yang begitu terangnya... Gw percaya... selalu akan ada pengharapan.. untuk hari esok... semoga semuanya jadi lebih baik... seiring dengan Doaku padaNya untuk mereka yang kucintai... untuk mereka... Aku hanya bisa berharap dan berdoa... *sigh* Sekarang ini... hidupku hanya untukNya.. ngga ada yang lebih baik lagi selain menyerahkan semuanya padaNya... dan berharap segalanya kan jadi lebih baik... berharap... berharap... dan terus berharap...

Lord.... help me be what you want me to be...
Your word I will strive to obey...
My life I now give... For You I will live...
And walk by Your side all the way...

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Wednesday, September 22, 2004 @ 11:56:00 pm |

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Everything goes wrong???

Tired * Stressed * Grumpy - The Feeler

Gila! Asli... Kesel banget gw hari ini... padahal kan rencananya besok dah mo meet Chris.. tapi akhirnya... gara2 appointment sama doctor nya di cancel jadi besok.. terpaksa hari kamis deh... padahal Kamis itu.. Ghea mau belajar ke rumah.. tadinya Vemi juga mau dateng... eh... ngga jadi dehhh... SEEEEEEBBBBBBBBEEEEELLLLLLL.... >_< padahal tadi udah beli tomat.. mayonaise.. mau bwat sandwich ama pudding bwat Chris besok... akhirnya... ngga jadi deh... lusa... Padahal menu makanan bwat hari kamis kan gw mo bwat nasi goreng... soalnya papa n mama dari pagi ngga ada di rumah... Udaaahhh... semua rencana gw kacau jadinya!!!!! Seebbbbbbbbeeeeeeeellllllll.... capekk deh... terus rencana liburan 10 hari mo nyantai juga kaga jadi dehh... malahan kayaknya kerjaan gw tiap hari ada aja... kan kalo sekolah udah pulangnya jam 4-5 sore getu.. payah aahhh.... Obat streessss apaaaan seeeeee????????

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Tuesday, September 21, 2004 @ 9:30:00 pm |

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Bloggers....

Thoughtful * Brainy * Nerdy - The Feeler

Hmm... Aneh sendiri gw... barusan abis blogwalking getu... liat2 blognya orang.. ternyata baru nyadar satu hal... KOQ PARA BLOGGER ITU UDAH TUA SMUA YAHHH????? (at least bwat anak seumur gw udah tua.. huehuehue) Yappps... blogger yang dibawah 16 taon itu... jarang banget... ada beberapa sih yang gw knal.. tapi... yah... temen2 gw sendiri... and then bbrp ang emank knal di blog... and then... the otherss..... Wheeew... pasti 1987+ getu... huahuahua.... kayaknya blogger underage itu udah mulai punah yahhh... ato lagi pada sibuk belajar taahh??? tapi... Inez, Levin n Karen.. temen2 gw tercinta itu masih stay update... blognya si Tante sekarang juga dah mulai punah.. ngga keurus getu... abis... banyak masalah se di skul... wuahh... punah sudaahhh.... wuaahhh.. ngga kebayang.. padahal di masa2 umur2 segini itu kan waktunya enjoy hidup.. belajar.. jadi yang terbaik di sekolah.. n learn everything fresh and new... pokoknya belajar semua yang baru2 dehh... lagian diinget2 kalo jaman sekarang gaptek gitu... kan.. ga lucu dehh... Tapi emang.. anak2 seumur gw yang sekarang betah duduk di depan kompie cuma bwat blogging or belajar itu VB.NET jarang banget.. sejauh ini yang gw knal bener2 otaknya encer baru si David seorang... wekks.. Programming... seru... tapi project gw perasaan kaga jadi2 yakks... ngga tau nih.. due nya kan masih next term sih... tapi yahh... 85% udah jadi.. tinggal bwat documentation nya sama Dikasih Final Touch aja.. yang pasti kalo di DEBUG.. jalan koq...*seneng*.. moga2 aja gw dapet bagus...25% dari nilai IGCSE lagi dipertaruhkan disini... hmmm... gilaaa... betapa tergila2nya gw...Kalo dah ngerti code2nya jadinya gampang koq... Udahh.. ahhh.... segini dolo daku mau lanjutin VB projectnya doloo.... Anyhow.. PROGRAMMING'S FUUNNNN RITEE???? AGREEE???

ps : bwat Inez --

Maksud gw bukan bloggers Singapore Nez.... yang gw bilang anak Indo lohhh... Nyemm2... kalo diluar mah banyaakkk....^_^

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Monday, September 20, 2004 @ 10:38:00 am |

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Mimpi Indah????? !@#$% Suereeeeemmmm....

Hungry * Loved - The Feeler

Kemaren malem... gw mimpi yang sueeeeereeeemmmmm buaaaannggeeett.... gila! Beneran.. Gw mimpi tiba2 rumah gw kayaknya gelaaaaappp banget... lagi mati lampu dan hujan.. mendukung banget tuh suasananya.. gw turun dari tempat tidur dan cari2 papa n mama di kamar mereka... taunya... ngga ada.. kosong.. terus gw kebawah, nyari pembantu di rumah.. n ternyata.. ngga ada juga.. nih rumah kosong, gelap getu.. akhirnya.. gw ambil senter.. nyalain.. dan rasanya masih aja gelaaaaaappp banget... padahal senternya nyala, tapi tetep aja ngga kliatan apa2.. gila! terus gw ngeraba2 dinding jalan naik tangga ke kamar gw.. langsung naik tempat tidur, tutup kpala pake selimut... terus ngga sebentar gw buka selimut gw dan tiba2 koq kamar mandi gw nyala lampunya... gw ke kamar mandi... lampunya bukan warna putih.. tapi warna kuning... merinding sendiri gw! terus pas gw liat di kamar mandi ga ada apa2.. gw pikir lampu dah nyala... n then... pas gw turn on the switch again... ngga bisa2.. masih mati lampu... Gila... tuh mimpi jelas banget di kepala gw...sereeemmm ngingetnya.. beneran... untung aja.. disaat2 ketakutan gw dalam mimpi... tiba2 gw kebangun dan liat sekeliling gw... Huaaahh... amaaannn... dan nyamaaann... sereeemmm... mikir apa yah gw semalem sblm tidur... stresss deeehh.... rasa takut yang ga terobati.... Padahal... dah seperti yang biasa gw lakukan... sebelum tidur.. nybutin namanya 3 kali... masih aja ngga ada khasiatnya... bener2 deh.... huaaahhh...

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Sunday, September 19, 2004 @ 9:40:00 pm |

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Here, there and Every where

Here
Making each day of the year
Changing my life with a wave of her hand
Nobody can
Deny that there's something there

There
Running my hands through her hair
Both of us thinking how good it can be
Someone is speaking, but she doesn't know he's there

I want her everywhere
And if she's beside me, I know I need never care
But to love her, is to need her
Everywhere
Knowing that love is to share
Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes
And hoping I'm always there
I will be there
And everywhere

Here
There
And everywhere

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Thursday, September 16, 2004 @ 11:08:00 pm |

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Weks! Gw kangen Eric....

Wow... guess.. who's back! Eric.... Wheewww.... Eric man!!!! really happy... he gave me his latest pic.. and.. hmm... He's change huh? Yeah.. of course.. He's so cute isn't he? I don't know... he looked more fresh and... yeah.. lebih semangat than before.. rambut dah kaga ada gitu.. persis kayak tentara..cuma tato nya aja ngga keliatan.. dia di punggung sama kaki ada tato loh!!!! katanya ART! padahal dah kayak gangster.. Gimana juga... dia udah ngalamin ujian berat... kemaren ini temennya Eric baru aja meninggal... itu juga gara2 mabuk.. drink alcohol.. terus pada balap mobil sembarangan di jalan.. makanya.. terus temennya tabrakan gitu.. huh.. gw harap Eric ngga apa2.. soalnya.. mengerikan kalo dipikir2 dia kena kejadian begitu..gw ngga pernah harepin ini semuanya terjadi.. Eric.. Udah sejak lama ngga nulis bwat dia.. Hari ini.. Gw pengen ketemu dia.. Waktu itu pernah gw disuruh dateng ke Sarawak.. tapi yah.. gimana lagi.. sama siapa gw pergi? Katanya dia mau ngajak gw keliling2 disana.. iyahh.. kerenzzz... Gw masih inget banget.. pertama kali gw ngeblog waktu 6 May 2004.. itu postingan tentang dia.. hahah... iya.. waktu itu dia baru balik dari Lubok Antu and.. katanya disana lumayan serem tempatnya.. weks... Seneng2.. dia orangnya adventurous.. makanya.. gw seneng denger dia cerita.. orangnya enak diajak bicara... it's so cool man!!!! dia suka hiking.. mountain climbing.. yeah.. krenzz lah... Gw pengenn ketemu diaaa... banget... Kangeeeeeeennnn...

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Tuesday, September 14, 2004 @ 7:14:00 pm |

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Baca donk.... this is a love story worth read... walaupun sedikit panjang...

[Love in 100 days]

Message: Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.

Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with
Peter: I guess we are the only leftovers. We are the only person who is not with a date now.(both sigh in silence for a while)

Tina: I think I have a good idea
You be my boyfriend for 100 days and ill be your girlfriend for 100 days
Peter: okay
Tina: you don't sound happy, cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date.
Peter: Lets go see a movie

They went to go watch the movie then walked each other home.

Day 2:
They went to a concert together and Peter bought Tina a key chain with a star on it.

Day 3:
They went shopping together for a friends birthday present. They shared ice cream together and hugged for the first time.

Day 7:
Peter drove Tina up the mountain and they watched the sunset together. they gazed at the sky. A meteor passed and Tina mumbled something.

Day 25:
They went to a theme park and rode roller coasters with each other.

Day 67:
They went to the circus together. Tina came to a fortune teller and she just said Treasure every moment from now on and a tear rolled down the fortune tellers cheek.

Day 84:
Tina suggested they go to a beach. Thats where they had their first kiss just as the sun was setting.

Day 99:
A simple day just walking around the city

1:23p.m.:
Tina: I'm thirsty Lets rest for a while first
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. what would you like?
Tina: Apple juice would be fine

1:43 p.m.:
Tina waited for 20 minutes Peter never came back
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: yes, may I help you?
Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.
Tina ran to the spot to find Peter on the ground with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came, she went to the hospital with Peter.
She sat in the emergency room for 5 hours then the doctor came out.

11:51 p.m.:
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. he is still alive now but it wont be much longer till he goes.
The doctor handed a letter over to Tina and she goes in the room to see Peter. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said:

Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with
you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less
thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. i have realized that
you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing
that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the
day, I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all
the time. Tina, i love you!

11:58 p.m.:
Tina: (sobbing) Peter. did you know what the wish was that i made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. we were supposed to last 100 days so Peter! you cant leave me!! I LOVE YOU, but you cant come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.

As the clock struck twelve, Peters heart stopped beating. It was 100 days

NOTE
Tell the guy or girl that you love them before its too late. you never know whats going to happen tomorrow. you never know who will be leaving you and never return.

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Friday, September 10, 2004 @ 7:59:00 pm |

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Grgch and Jafe

Bwat co~ gw... thx for everything...

This day in June,our love story began... [ Grgch and Jafe - June 8th, 2004 ]

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Wednesday, September 08, 2004 @ 11:59:00 pm |

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Programming 'N >>>

Ugghh... currently feels "KESAMBAR PETIR" wekks! Yacky! Akhirnya Visual Basic Project gw [setelah 4 bulan tertunda] dah jadi 80% nya!!!! Seneeeeeennggg banget. Gw buat application bwat di library getu.. sebenernya ngga susah sih.. cuma repot banget.. udah harus bwat 14 FORM lagi.. blom lagi type codenya.. kayak gw yang males begini.. hehe.. abis nyusun code.. tinggal copy paste aja dehh.. hehe.. tapi programming itu menyenangkan loh... dulu sebelum masuk SCIENCE STREAM.. gw udah berandai-andai bisa belajar Programming.. sampe akhirnya.. dengan perjuangan keras.. gw bisa pindah dari SUB-SCIENCE ke SCIENCE STREAM.. uaaggghhhhh

Tapi sekarang dah enak.. dah hampir setaon gw di SCIENCE STREAM, dan untung-untungnya lagi, gw di programming lancar-lancar aja.. Ngga tau sejak kapan mulai suka ma programming.. barusan duduk depan kompie

udah 4 jam'an lebih..nyelesai'in project.. infact sampe sekarang ini.. hehehe... punya hobby juga kali yah.. Utak-atik code.. rasanya lebih fun daripada hafalin GEOGRAPHY. Paling sebel banget tuh ma GEO, dah ky get

Terus.. paling seneng lagi BIOLOGY lesson.. [BUKAN YANG CHAPTER REPRODUCTION LOHHH!!!

] gw suka yang DRUGS AND MEDICINE itu..

terus my favorite subject lagi.... KIMIAAAAAAA ---->> CHEMISTRRRRYYYYYY!!!!!

Seneng banget ama nih subject.. terus.. ENGLISHHHH

Pelajaran favorite gw sejak SD.. hahaha.. ga tau knapa.. seneng aja ama Englishh.. bwat COMPOSITION lebih enak daripada ngitung2 Mathematics.. weekkss...udah ah.. segini dulu.. houhouhou... ADA YANG SUKA MA PROGRAMMING JUGAAA?????

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Tuesday, September 07, 2004 @ 9:50:00 pm |

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Stories

When I get to know him We'll find more things to say
One day I will reach him There has to be a way
Everyone needs someone He must need someone, too
When I get to know him better Here's what I will do

I'll read him stories From picture books all filled with wonder
Magic worlds where the impossible becomes the everyday
We'll find a mountaintop and some moonbeams
To sit under I'll lead because I know the way

So much to discover I do it all the time
I could live inside bright pages Where the words all rhyme
We will slay the dragons That still follow him around
And he'll smile, yes he'll smile As his dreams leave the ground

Stories and stories 'Bout mermaids, kings And sunken treasure
Magic worlds where the impossible Becomes the everyday
I know a tiny place Just a dot, too small to measure
I'll take him there I know the way

Stories 'bout heroes Who overcame their deepest sorrow
They'll put hope into his heart again He'll cherish every day
He'll find a better world And the strength to face tomorrow
I'm sure that when he knows the way
He'll want to stay

[-ost- The Enchanted Christmas]

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Monday, September 06, 2004 @ 9:33:00 pm |

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I'm so lucky to have you...

Monday.. the beginning of the day.. Kemaren setelah seharian ngabisin waktu sama cowo' gw... Gw mulai melihat dia jauh lebih dalam dan ternyata banyak hal yang gw ngga sadari dia miliki.. Hati nya yang begitu sensitif.. yah.. gw tiba-tiba aja melihat sisi sensitif seorang dia.. yang selama ini gw kira species homosapiens "MALE" ngga punya.. ternyata masih ada.. perasaan dan keinginan untuk mencintai dan dicintai..Understanding, caring, etc.

Bener-bener bersyukur banget punya dia.. It feels great to talk to someone who is mature already. Bukan, diliat dari umur, tapi kedewasaan dan pola pikirannya (Like what he said to me yesterday) rasanya bener-bener beda.. karena kebanyakan orang yang gw temui itu selalu berpikir pendek dan gampangnya aja dan ga jarang mereka ngomong sembarangan.Baru sadar.. saat senang, susah.. ada dia di samping gw.. temenin gw.. support gw saat gw down.. encourage me to keep on living this hard life, keep on surviving.. hibur gw disaat gw nangis, sedih.. dia selalu jadi orang yang paling ngerti ttg gw..

Kemaren.. dia merasa salah, and then bilang "Apa yang harus gw lakukan bwat nebus kesalahan gw?" Gw kemaren itu ngga bener-bener mo nyuruh dia ngelakuin semua itu.. yang ternyata di luar duga'an gw dia lakukan.. pdhl saat itu gw cuma main-main dan dia bilang ke gw, "Tenang aja, baru 18 menit. Gw masi tahan koq. Dmi nebus kesalahan gw, apapun gw lakukan..." Walaupun bgt.. gw tau dia itu baru aja sembuh dari sakit.. terus kalo dipaksa'in dingin-dingin'an bgt, bukannya malah jadi sakit lagi? Kadang gw bener-bener ngga habis pikir kenapa dia mau laku'in semua itu bwat gw? Gw sendiri yang liat dia begitu kemaren.. dengan ngga sadar.. air mata gw udah mengalir dengan derasnya.. Gw ngga mau liat dia menderita, walaupun dia bilang ngga apa apa..tapi di dalam sini.. hati gw sakit..

Dan pertama kalinya dalam hidup gw ada orang yang bilang ma gw (selain my parents) kalo gw itu alasan untuk dia bertahan hidup. Padahal selama ini, gw selalu mikir kalo hidup gw itu ga pernah berharga buat siapa-siapa.. tapi ternyata.. masih ada orang yang rela ganti'in kehidupan gw dengan nyawanya sendiri...ga tau harus sedih atau bahagia..

Hari ini, khusus nulis bwat dia.. Karena terlalu banyak kata-kata yang ngga terucapkan.. yang ngga bisa keluar dari mulut gw bwat dibilang ke dia... Makasih untuk semuanya yah?

[Today... this lyric.. send it for you..]

You raise me up by Josh Groban

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit a while with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . @ 4:30:00 am |

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Better man by Robbie Williams

This song... I love this song very much.. Pertama kali dengernya 2 taon yang lalu waktu masih di CN... yang bwat gw suka.. itu kata2nya... Now... I wanna send this lyric for all of my friends in CN who really love this song especially for Arthur

(I know you love this song badly..

) and of course for Chris

.. What we talked about today.. I just wanna say "YOU CAN IF YOU REALLY WANNA TRY HARD, TRUST ME!" (if u still remember what we're talking about..

) Btw.. love u too

[Better man]

Send someone to love me I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm In pouring rain

Give me endless summer Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old Before my time

As my soul heals the shame I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience 'Cos it's not my fault
I know I've been taught To take the blame

Rest assured my angels Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can To be a better man

Once you've found that lover You're homeward bound
Love is all around Love is all around

I know some have fallen On stony ground
But love is all around

Send someone to love me I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm In pouring rain

Give me endless summer Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old Before my time

As my soul heals the shame I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can To be a better man

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Sunday, September 05, 2004 @ 1:29:00 am |

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"Eric" ~ my cousin, my brother, my friend....

Hmmm... dapet e-mail lagi dari eric.. dibales ngga yah?? emang udah lama banget sih gw ga bales e-mail nya.. tapi...gw lagi malesss banget belakangan ini..tapi kalo liat dia minta maaf sampe "Million of sorry..." Rasanya gw ngga tega deh... terus kemaren itu dia baru aja tabrakan motor... weks.. untung aja ngga apa2.. tapi motornya rusak parah.. tau sendiri deh.. kan di Sarawak sekarang lagi hujan.. Tapi emang sih.. gimana lagi.. setelah keluar dari rehab 3 taon yang lalu.. dia dah mulai kerja..

tapi yah.. gitu deh.. dia tetep aja merasa dijauhin ama keluarganya.. sedih banget yah.. mungkin tampangnya yang mirip preman gitu yang bwat dia ditakutin sodara2 nya.. tapi yah.. apa ngga bisa ngerti kalo sekarang dia udah berubah.. Kadang sedih juga yah.. kalo kita digitu'in ama keluarga sendiri.. Dia.. yang pasti kepribadiannya yang tertentu ngga banyak berubah.. masih aja ngga terlalu suka ngomong banyak.. shy

Terus.. Kalo ngomong itu udah half English, half Hokiannese and half Indo.. Kayaknya sekarang dah ngga tinggal ma parentsnya lagi.. hidup emang bener2 ngga adil deh.. hmm... But still he's a great brother for me... and also a great friend to be with..

.. Miss him.. my brother...

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Thursday, September 02, 2004 @ 6:23:00 pm |

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Hari ini kasih waktu bwat diri gw deh....

Hiixxx... T_T Chris sakit..cepet sembuh yahhh..??? khawatir banget.. soalnya dia itu orangnya ga bs forsil tidur malem..kecape'an sakit deh.. T_T Kemaren baru dapet salam dari penguinnya yayangkuwww.. pengen banget nih liat penguinnya.. ky ap sih.. ampe dia itu segitu addictednya.. Terus.. dia masih ngutang atu "BINTANG" yang paling terang ama gw.. katanya dia mo bawa'in itu bintang.. apa bisa yah..Aneh aja, kemaren ini beneran pengen banget punya bintang, trus minta ama dia.. dari kecil soalnya gw suka banget mandangin langit.. dulu kalo sama mama jalan di luar.. malem.. pasti jalannya sambil mandangin bulan.. Iyah.. di rumah lama gw, bulannya super keliatan deh pokoke.. yekks.. terus gw pengen banget liat Chrisku tercinta maen drum.. pengen tau aja.. lom pernah denger nih... ehhhgggxxxx...terus lagi pengen makan makanan buatan mama.. abisnya sekarang mama kan dah jarang masak.. yang masak maid.. tapi berapa hari ini.. (infact.. dah 2 minggu se..) mama jadi rajin masak lagi..makanya... seneng banget.. tapi bwat kedepannya taon depan abis lulus bulan mei.. pengen belajar masak yang bener ah ama mama.. masak itu kewlzz loohh.. gw cuma sering bantu'in aja.. tapi kalo suruh masak sendiri.. palingan gw itu bwat Tiramisu, terus.. ">_<) terus.. telur dadar.. hehehe.. gw paling seneng maen2 ama telur.. ngga tau knapa.. apalagi pas nge-retak'in telurnya n dibuka, ditaro di bowl...wehehe.. gila.. gw suka banget.. maen eggs.. (gila yakks..????) terus.. bwat ice cream.. pernah diajarin mama tuh.. bwat ice cream sendiri.. jadinya rasanya lucu juga se.. tapi mama ngga pake yang bwat lembut'in itu.. apa namanya.. jadi rasanya mungkin agak sedikit lucu.. tp.. gpplah.. enak2 koq.. hehe.. yahh.. gini2 ga mo kalah ah dari Chris.. abisnya.. kalo ngga bwat gw terpukul kebelakang banget kalo dia bisa masak, gw kaga bisa.. weeekksss.. tp.. untung deh.. masih ada hobby masak turunan nyokap.. kayak temen2 gw.. beneran pada ga bisa masak.. (80%) ce and co nya sama aja smua... iya ngga???

Posted by Ja Ne-Fe . Wednesday, September 01, 2004 @ 4:24:00 pm |

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